Why do we fight God?

Maybe you don't fight God. Maybe you do. 

Have you ever thought that God wants you somewhere in life but you don't have the faith to trust Him? 

...or maybe it's the devil trying really hard to keep you from Gods will. 

How do you tell the difference? Maybe there's not a difference. Maybe they go hand in hand. 

It's hard. Life is hard. Decisions are hard. 

Recently I had the opportunity to go on a mission trip with my church. I tried really hard to get out of it. I dreaded the trip. I didn't want to be there. What made it even more worse is that when I finally did give in and agree not to back out, it seems like the devil was working even harder. I was cleaning up my house the night before and slid down hurting my keee and my back (which I had been under a chiropractors care for already). The next morning as we get ready to leave my the church, my husband and I got into a fight over text. Not the way you want to start a 6 day trip. I tried to keep telling myself it's not about me. Something big must be going to go on if the devil is fighting me this hard. I cried in the backseat of the van I was riding in for a good 30 minutes until I realized I couldn't change anything. I even considered having them drop me off somewhere and calling my dad to pick me up. Seriously considered it. I laid back and finally went to sleep as I prayed to God that He would intervene and work out this fight, help me on this trip and I will give Him all the glory. 

So... as we start our mission work this morning I'm eager to see what all God has in store for this week. 

Day 1: Before today, my anxiety has been through the roof! Do you suffer from anxiety? How's the best way for you to deal with it? I unfortunately had to go take my medicine this time and lay down. Most of the time I can talk myself out of the anxious moments I'm experiencing. But for some reason, I couldn't this time. The rest of the group had worship while I went upstairs. I cried. I felt like a child. I felt alone. I couldn't help it. 

After getting up and eating breakfast, I sat down to do my quiet time. I didn't have the book with me that was provided. Soon I found out that was God's plan. Have you heard of Proverbs 31 and the First 5 app? I've had it on my phone for a long time now, but didn't use it as my daily devotion...until today. I even had the spiritual guide printed so I could answer the questions that went along with the study. So I decided to focus on that one (the study of Joshua and Judges). I am eager to tell you what my study was about this morning. 

God is always on time and always gives us what we need when we need it. 

I opened my phone up. Found the study. And bam. This was the first words that appeared in my study:

Joshua 1:6 (NIV) “Be strong and courageous, because you will lead these people to inherit the land I swore to their ancestors to give them.”

God sometimes invites us to do things that seem far beyond our abilities. In those moments, it’s easy to feel overwhelmed, unqualified and ill-equipped. That is why I love the story of Joshua.

Talk about being hit over the head with a brick. 

I have felt sorry for myself and wanted to go home. But clearly through this passage I can see that God has me here for a reason. Things are always in the right place at the right time when you have God first in your life. 

So, as I end this mornings "a-ha" moment, we are headed to find out what jobs we will be doing. 

Most of all, I'm looking forward to spending time with Him and serving in a beautiful area of the country.